💀 About Me

Scientist of Self-Sabotage | Neuroscience, AI & Intelligence That Hurts (a Little)

If you’re here, you’re probably wondering:
“Who the hell is this guy—and why does this all feel… too real?”

I’m Pierre.
Neuroscience & AI troublemaker. Indie author. Architect of emotional chaos.
I study why humans (especially me) are walking contradictions.

I didn’t get into this field to help others.
I got into it because I couldn’t understand my own brain—so I started reverse-engineering it.

Now I write things that make people laugh until they cry.
Spiral publicly. Build operating systems out of breakdowns.
And make self-awareness impossible to ignore.

 

🧠 What I Actually Do (Besides Overthink in Three Languages)

PhD-level research in AI x Neuroscience — focused on behavior loops & execution systems
Built Oops I’m Toxic — a brand-turned-black-hole for emotional pattern recognition
Design personal operating systems for chaotic humans who want to function
Build awareness-first execution tools (because motivation is a scam)
Translate self-sabotage into usable frameworks
Make intelligence fun, painful, and slightly addictive

💀 This isn’t self-help. It’s self-research.
Stick around if you’re into spirals, systems, or existential debugging.

📸 Follow the chaos on Instagram → @iamxiaoming1707


What is Oops I’m Toxic?

It’s not a brand. It’s an experiment.
Where dark humor meets behavior design.
Where breakdowns become blueprints.
Where self-awareness doesn’t mean healing—
it means you finally see the pattern.

📌 Brutal honesty about self-sabotage
📌 Reality checks disguised as entertainment
📌 Cognitive tools wrapped in comedy, wrapped in chaos


📖 Ready to Spiral? Start with the First Book.

It didn’t come from a plan.
It came from a breakdown.
A long, punctuation-free message to GPT.
No timeline. No outline.
Just one long emotional hemorrhage that somehow turned into structure.

💀 What If I’m the Problem? is where it all started—
the meltdown that forced the system to exist.

👉 📖 Get the Book. Name Your Price. Unname Yourself.

 

⚙️ The System Didn’t End There…

So I built the Machine.
Not a sequel. Not a healing arc.
Just a document engineered by a brain that didn’t plan to survive—until it wrote itself back online.

🌀 I Built the Machine So I’d Stop Planning the Exit
Pay What You Want — Because recursion doesn’t bill hourly.

📎 What you’re downloading:
• A digital will disguised as a breakdown file
14 essays, 1 hidden tripwire
• The most emotionally irresponsible thing I’ve ever written
Short. Sharp. Spiritually dangerous.
🧠 You won’t “read” it. You’ll get processed by it.

👉 Enter the Machine. Exit… TBD.


💸 Choose Your Self-Awareness Level:

📌 $0 → “I’m broke, but self-awareness is free, right?” 😭
📌 $5 → “I’m slightly toxic, but working on it.” 🤷♂️
📌 $10 → “I’ve made questionable life choices, but I support indie authors.” 💸
📌 $20+ → “I’m a self-sabotaging mess, but at least I’m generous.” 🤑
📌 $200 → “I need this book more than therapy—and honestly? This is cheaper.” 🔥

If it makes you spiral, think, or laugh while hating yourself just a little—
you decide what it’s worth.

 

📍What’s Coming Next?

📌 More books on self-sabotage, identity, and emotional recursion
📌 Group breakdown sessions (disguised as calls)
📌 AI-assisted execution labs
📌 Personal systems for brains that can’t stay still
📌 Ways to make sense of yourself without fixing yourself

👀 Want to stay inside the system?

👉 📸 Follow Me on Instagram

🚀 Thank You to Everyone Supporting My Work

Whether you downloaded the books, shared the chaos, or just stalked the homepage 12 times—thank you.

Every single interaction fuels the next meltdown. The next tool. The next emotional autopsy.
You're part of it now.

📖 Want to support even more?
👉 Enter the Book That Started the Breakdown
👉 The Second Book. It’s Worse.
👉 📸 Follow Me on Instagram


💭 Why Oops I’m Toxic Exists

Because I don’t have answers.
Just the kind of questions that keep people up at night.

And if this project makes you laugh, panic, or sit in silence at 3AM wondering if you’ve been avoiding something…
that’s probably worth something.

This isn’t a platform. It’s a system.
You can scroll back up…
But you’re already in it.